One dollar donation

I received my first donated dollar from a friend of a friend who I was visiting with this week. This person is an alcoholic that is fighting to get his life back together. He realizes that he is the cause of his own problems and desires to change. Alcoholism is a tough battle for those who struggle with it. I have several friends and acquaintances that contend with this addiction.

When I told him about my journey and the purpose of it he reached in his pocket and gave me the only dollar he had to his name. He insisted I take it and I gladly accepted it! I said that I would not spend this dollar but keep it with me as a good luck charm knowing that he appreciated what I was doing and gave all that he had. To me this is a valuable contribution because of the spirit behind the giving. I know he will conquer his alcoholism. He is a very smart guy, a gifted mechanic and has many talents. Many blessings to him!

Dealing with Emotions

     I am going to really put myself out there during this trip and NOW as I prepare for my journey. I have been feeling real upbeat and positive about things until today. Today the pain body is having it's way a bit, not completely cause I am standing back as the observer and watching how it unfolds and builds to a crescendo trying to take over me.  

     Eckhart Tolle's book The Power of Now is such a great book! If you have not read it I highly suggest it! I will be discussing it quite a bit throughout this blog. When I talk about the pain body I am referring to his concept which in the simplest terms means that all our emotional pain becomes a entity in itself trying to possess us and drain our energy. Any negative emotion is energy draining and can be felt in the body. The key to having control is to become a observer of the emotion you are experiencing thus separating yourself from it because ultimately it is not you. It is only an experience you are having and since it is only a experience then you have the power to disconnect from it. 


     The problem we have is we believe our emotions are us! So they take control of us instead of us taking control of them. Remember, you are in charge! You can choose to be in any emotional state that you wish. I am sure that you would choose love, joy, happiness or any positive emotion over any negative IF you could control your emotional state and become king over your own kingdom within you. There are several processes and methods I will be using to accomplish this during my journey. 


     Three things that I noticed already that work well is believing that you are not your emotion but that your emotion is just an indicator of how far or how close you are to your true self. Your true self is peaceful, blissful, content and in complete control. There is no fear in love as they say so fear would be the furthest from your true self that one could get. All negative emotion is pain and suffering, mentally, emotionally and physically in the body as sickness, disease and finally death. None of these things exist in love. 


     They say God is love. I say God is existence itself and that God chooses to be love cause love IS the best feeling that IS. Thus God chooses to be only love. If you don't believe in a almighty God that is okay too since you will still choose love over any other emotion cause that is what every living things strives to obtain in completeness. Even the most evilest being strives for it. It chooses the darkness to discover the light cause life is light and light is love and there is no escaping it! The darkness has no chance!


     Back to my emotional state today. I have been feeling anxiety today caused by my outside reality that I haven't quite let go of yet while I am cleansing my inside reality. As Christ said "Cleanse first the inside of the cup then the outside will also become clean". It is easy to do that which we are use to doing. The repetitive patterns of the past that keep knocking on the door saying "don't forget about me"! Feelings of lack, unworthiness, failure, frustration and anger etc. I feel like taking out my mighty sword of the spirit and slaying them all! But that would be exactly what they want. They want to stir up negative energy. Instead I will give them none of it! I will observe and laugh as I watch the circus show knowing it is not me, no now I am in control!

     Just writing this gives me tremendous power to transform all these negative emotions in to positive power. I become the black hole that consumes all negative energy only to produce positive life on the other side. A black hole consumes only that which is no longer useful, negative and destructive to life. Otherwise it would let it be. It is the recycle bin of life.  I'm talking metaphorically not scientifically. 


     The best thing you can doing when in a negative state of mind is take action! Become the observer and disconnect from the emotion in anyway you can. Then try letting go of the emotion using the Sedona Method. Then use Ho'oponopono to heal from the experience. The Ho'oponopono mantra is "I love you, I'm sorry, forgive me, thank you. My own assessment of these phrases is that I love you means just that. You are saying that you love yourself and the thing or person that brought about the experience, thus showing love and projecting love upon you and the whole experience. I'm sorry means that you apologize for the negative experience YOU created. Forgive me means that you ask to be forgiving for creating such a negative experience. You give yourself permission to be forgiven. Thank you means you are grateful for the experience and that you learned much by it. All this is a process of letting go and forgiving yourself for creating such negativity. I found that persistent use of this concept has helped me to stay in control by allowing, forgiving, loving and appreciating all that life brings. 

     How powerful is Ho'oponopono? Dr Ihaleakala Hew Len healed a whole ward of seriously mentally ill people with absolutely no contact with the patients. All he did was look at their files and while repeating over and over again the Ho'oponopono mantra until they were all healed and walked out of the hospital own their own accord!


     Until tomorrow -I LOVE YOU-I AM SORRY-FORGIVE ME-THANK YOU!


Charles :)

Forward

     I am embarking on a unique adventure called The Journey of Trust. The journey is about trusting your intention and intuition, knowing it to be so, not doubting and seeing the results and consequences. We are all at this moment trusting in something to be true according to are beliefs and definitions of those beliefs. You have probably heard of the Law of Attraction. If you haven't no worries cause it has always been around, it has been explained by masters such as Buddha and Christ. Christ said the measure you measure out will come back to you. Actually he even said it would be more than what you have given out. The law is simply. What you project from your inside (your mind & heart) by thought and feeling, you will receive back though your outside reality. Physical reality is a mirror of who you are projecting to be.

     My trip will have a threefold purpose. One will be to prove that the law of attraction is true by trusting in what I am putting out from my mind and heart knowing that it is a universal law that cannot be broken. You cannot look into a mirror with a frown and expect back a smile. You must first smile then the mirror will smile back. Your reality is no different. Based on this anyone who donates to my journey will receive back three times or more what they gave to help me accomplish my journey. 

     The second is to clear myself of all negative thoughts and emotions that could hinder me in my journey. By doing so I will have pure intent and as my journey goes on I will only gain in personal strength and power. I'll be using two methods of clearing. The Sedona Method which was created by Lester Levenson. A man on his death bed who came back to a full, happy, healthy life after using a process to clear his mind of all negative thought and emotion. The second method I'll be using is called Ho'oponopono a Hawaiian practice of healing. I'll be using and explaining these methods throughout my journey. You'll get to see the results first hand.

     The third is to be free in every way. Financially, emotionally, spiritually and any another way or experience you can think of.

     My journey will start December first and will last for a minimum of three months. I will be doing a daily blog with pictures, video and writing about my experience. This will become a book when I am done but it will be free to read online until my journey is over. Anyone who donates to my journey will be mentioned on my site or may received advertising as an exchange for services. I ACCEPT ALL FORMS OF DONATION! It does not have to be money. You can provide me with a meal, a place to stay, or anything that will help me to reach my destination and goals. There will be a PayPal button on the site for monetary donations.

     There is nothing greater than self discovery. There is no better feeling in existence then to know and understand existence itself. It is a freedom that nobody can describe, it is one that each must discover on their own by examining themselves and understanding themselves. Stay tuned this should get interesting!

Peace and Blessings!
Charles

Doubting

     I am going to talk about doubt as the first emotion that needs to be eradicated from my brain! We love to self sabotage, doubting ourselves, doubting others and simply doubting the natural process of life. Doubt will be one obstacle that will pop up it's ugly little head every time you believe in something new. Whether that be in a goal you are trying to accomplish or a feeling your trying to over come your persistent negative thoughts will always arise when they are threatened. If you are trying to believe in a new concept the old concept does not want to be forgotten so it fights for it's life and right to be. It will lie to you and make you believe that IT IS YOU that it is part of who you are and therefore cannot get rid of it. It will try to convince you that you cannot live without it.

     Well how do you fight such resistance to change? You don't! You must accept that feeling for what it is, just a feeling. It is not you. No feeling is you, it is only a experience you are having. You are simply existence itself and existence can choose to experience anything it wishes. It is the zero point of being. The IAM. When you say I am this or that then you are saying that you are that thing or this thing.You are identifying your being with that thing. If you say I am sick. Then you are saying that you are sickness. You are identifying sickness as who you are but it is not who you are. Nothing outside of you ( you as in your beingness) is you. You only choose to identify yourself by these things outside of you. If you do not like what you are identifying yourself with then you can choose to identify yourself by something else or nothing at all.

Change is a process that takes dedication to the process. Everything you experience is a result of your thinking and feeling. A thought has absolutely no power unless it is fueled by emotion. When there is no emotional attachment the thought fades away. Thus the process for changing your life is to be aware of your emotional state and to be aware of the thought that is attached to the emotional state. If you are feeling angry then ask your self why am I feeling angry. Asking this question helps to bring up the thoughts that lead to the feeling. There may be several thoughts tied together that brought about the feeling of anger. You must address and bring up each one connected with the emotion of anger you are having presently. I say presently because you want ONLY to work on emotion that you are now feeling.

     We want to stay in the present. We don't want to go to the past or the future. If the feeling is connected with the past then accept that fact but deal with it in the present. Cause there is only the present moment. If you are thinking about the past then you are not in the present. Same if you are thinking of the future. If you are in the past or the future with your thoughts and feelings then you are not living. You are dead to the moment. Only what you are thinking, feeling, doing right now matters cause there is only now. If you are not living now then you are truly dead.

     There is no difference between the zombies of horror movies and those who live in the past and future. They are both the living dead. They look alive but really they are dead. They keeping search for brains to feed there lack of being. The reason they have no brains is cause they are stuck in the past or the future and thus have no brains in the now.

     I often think of the seemingly harsh words of Christ and their meaning. Christ asked a man to follow him and the man replied that he needed to first bury his Father then he would follow him. Christ said to him "Let the dead bury the dead." The typical reaction to this is disbelief in these very words. They cannot believe Christ as a loving man would be so harsh as to not allow this man the time to bury his Father properly before following him but when you understand it from a higher level you can understand why he said such seemingly harsh words.

Christ was present and he was not going to be there forever anyone who was to follow him had to act NOW! His father was already dead and there was nothing he could do to change that. The people at his funeral will all be mourning and grieving thus living in the past and maybe even thinking of the future when there would see the person again. The whole process is not one of the present moment. Anyone who was to follow the Christ has to be in the now cause that is where he dwells. All Masters live in the now present moment cause they no that is all there is. Time and space is only a experience we are having in this 3D reality. The only way to free yourself and become enlightened is to live in the now.

     There are several methods that can help you to live in the now. I will be using several different ones in my journey and sharing my experiences with all you who are tuning in to my journey. I'll be leaving in 16 days. I thnak you for all your generous donations! A place to stay for the night, a meal and a shower, a ride somewhere, a pleasant, enjoyable, conversation, money and more.

     I guarantee that whatever you give you will receive back threefold or more!

Blessings to you!
Charles