Saturday, January 14, 2012


After surviving the winter storm through Kansas I arrived 20 hrs later in Denver with cramped up legs in need of some medical relief. I stayed with a long time friend in Denver. I spent a week in Denver relaxing and partaking of the fine medical grade cannabis. Colorado has some of the finest cannabis in the USA! It was hard to leave!

I had engaging conversation my friend on many subjects especially finances as he is knowledgeable in those matters and I need assistance in understanding how to make a good income. He is also very knowledgeable in real estate and I learned much about house flipping and what to look for in buying a property. He is in the middle of completely renovating a house he recently bought and I helped him for a few days doing some demolition and chimney repair. It had been awhile since I had re-pointed a chimney but it came back to me like riding a bike.

I found a ride to Taos, New Mexico from a fellow Couchsurfer. I had never been there and decided it would be an interesting place to visit. I learned all about the fine art of dumpster diving from my CS friend as I discovered I was eating a granola bar from good dive at the Odwalla factory. It tasted fine and was completely seal in the wrapper but just a bit out of date. It was amazing to learn just how much stuff gets wasted and thrown out.

Taos has an odd vibe to it that I can't put into words. The scenery is fabulous with lots of open space and majestic mountains in the back ground.  There is good eats for reasonable prices in town with some of the best southwestern food around. I spent four days there with a Couchsurfer. The house that he rents was at one time rented by members of the Grateful Dead. It was a duplex adobe house. His side was three rooms. Two down stairs and one upstairs loft that was octagon shaped. There was definitely a magical feel in the room. Perhaps there was still some grateful dead living in the room.

I would to have loved to do some hiking but it was fairly cold when I was there. We attempted to go to some local hots springs but could not make it down the road as there was a cold wind that had froze the road over and a few people were already stuck and in need of rescue!

New years eve had arrived and my host was not up for going out so I went out on the town myself and hooked up with some people at the local Taos Inn at the bar. One women was from a local community called The Lama Foundation a spiritual sustainable community focused on helping those on a spiritual path. We had some engaging conversation on spiritual subjects. The bar was closing and there was a party going on that we all went to after. The party was small but not lacking in spirit. I met some interesting people.

I talked with the party's host and had a discussion on glass blowing. His niche is making marbles but everyone keeps asking him to make pipes! He had a few attempts at making some but was sticking to making the marbles which was his true art. Another guy was from South America somewhere, I don't remember as it was a long night but we talk about DNA and mitochondria as he was studying bio-something, forgive me I don't remember it was a long night. Two bumps and I was ready for the long five mile walk back home. I got home just before dawn. I could here some roosters starting their wake up call but for me it was time to sleep.

My Couchsurfing friend gave me a ride down to Albuquerque the next day where I had a hard time getting a couch last minute. I was walking down to the Rio Grande to go camp when my phone rang and a Couchsurfer came to the rescue! Not that I needed rescuing I was well prepared to sleep out in the cold but a nice warm place to stay was better as I was leaving the next day because I had found a ride to Flagstaff. My host Bob had the hosting part of CS down and has hosted over 80 people! He hopes to do some surfing in the near future.

Monday, January 9, 2012

The Lessons of Darkness and Light

The light and the darkness exist infinitely as mirrors two each other. You cannot know how much light you are experiencing unless you can project it against something, such as a movie projector using light to project a movie on to a screen in a dark room. The dark room could not experience the movie without the light from the projector. The light could not project the movie without the aid of the dark room. Both are needed to enjoy and experience the movie. Both are needed to enjoy and experience life.

The more you understand that everything is one and nothing is truly separate the more you will know the truth of all things. The light and the darkness are teachers in the school of life. Life is experience, in experience we learn lessons, in these lessons we evolve our consciousness becoming more aware of all that is. All that is has always been and always will be. It is not that all that can be created is already created but that all possibility exist infinitely thus all that can be known is infinite and cannot truly be all known except in what has been experienced so far from all that is.

If you want to be strong in the light you must have a strong reflection back from the darkness. The darkness shows you how much light you have in your being. How you look in the darkness shows how you are in the light. It is only a reflection. You do not have to experience great darkness to see your reflection in the mirror of darkness. When you become more conscious the reflection back from darkness is so bright it does not seem like darkness anymore but light. As Christ said "Let your light shine" cause when it does brightly you cannot experience the darkness due to the brightness of your reflection upon it.

Although the darkness is always there it cannot effect anyone who's light is so bright. The light frequency of such a being is above the effects of darkness because of it's light output. Darkness has no power over it unless the light descends into darkness it will not shine as bright and will become dim but never fade away. In the darkness there is only ignorance for those who are at the farthest point away from the light where separation is felt at the greatest level. Where service to self is at it's maximum point and can go no farther. It is like a man who has fallen asleep on a raft and floated out to sea to a point where there was nobody around to save him.

The light can reach all seven levels of existence but darkness can only rise from one to four at least in effectiveness since at level 5 the light is too bright and darkness has no influence on it although it still exists at that level and level 6. Level seven is completely light no darkness can even exist. Low light can be reached on level one for which microscopic life lives in the darkness. All these levels of existence are densities of vibration. One being the darkest and densest of all and seven being the lightest and brightest of all. Whatever density of life you are on you can see all levels below and have partially understanding of levels above. When you have gained enough knowledge of the next level above you then evolve to that level.

Everything existed on level seven until the big bang of creation which expanded out from the light into the darkness and created the seven levels of existence. The darkness was the void mentioned in the Bible and God was the light. God meaning the creator or existence itself expanding outwardly into the void into order to experience itself and spread life abroad. We are the image projected into the darkness in order to experience it and reflect back to the light those experiences and lessons learned from being in the darkness. We are the light and we have experienced the darkness for a long time but we are slowly reflecting back closer to the source becoming individual beings reflecting the light of the source thus becoming one with it. The more we understand and become consciously aware of the more we will rise in levels of existence and reflect more closely the source of all creation which is infinite possibility through love light and joy.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Little House On The Prairie In Downtown Cincinnati

     I called my friend Mike in Cincinnati and asked about staying with him as we had only talked about it briefly before I had left. He was real tied up with a lot and said he did not have much time but would like to see me. We arranged to talk once I got into town. I sent out a few Couchsurfing requests before I left New York in case my friend was not able to host me.

     When I arrived in Pittsburgh I checked my email and saw I had two couch offers from hosts in Cincinnati. Both were named Ryan and both I found out later were mechanics who work in shops right near each other. Ryan C works on Volkswagen's and Audi's and Ryan H on BMW's and they had actually seen each other through the industry but never had met on Couchsurfing.

     I stayed with Ryan C and his girlfriend Krystal in their way cool cottage! This cottage is located on old farm land inside the city limits. The cottage was a gem in the midst of the city. It had a very homey feel to it. Ryan and Krystal are brand new to Couchsurfing and were planning a cross country trip themselves. They were glad to host me and get some experience under there belts. They were wonderful hosts! They were very generous and accommodating.

     We shared a lot of similar interests such as eating healthy, organic and as natural as possible. We also shared philosophies and life experiences that enriched our time together. Ryan talked about Zen philosophy and practices and invited me to a Zen meditation group. The Zen practice was peaceful and enjoyable but they did chanting which I did not care for to much. I did like the quite meditation although it was hard for me to sit still the whole time as I am not used to sitting that long in what would be for me an awkward position. The one conducting the practice was very helpful and tried to help me be as comfortable as possible. Overall it was a enjoyable experience.

     Ryan and Krystal both liked the idea of my journey and the philosophies I talk about on this blog. We  had great discussions on many subjects. They told me about the trip they were taking cross country and their route was very similar to the route a friend and I had taken cross country. I shared some of my experiences with them of some the places they were going to be seeing. They were first heading straight to Denver to see a friend for a day and then proceed straight to California where most of the sights they had planned to see were at.  Denver was exactly where I was going next and they invited me to go with them.

     We all went out for the night to Sitwells in Clifton for some eats and entertainment with Ryan's father who I enjoyed having discussions with on Religion and spirituality. He is a Methodist minister who was retiring soon. I found him not to be to dogmatic but very open to spiritual ideas and concepts. The band that night was The Frenchmen, a talented 1920's music scene extraordinaire. All the members were lively and performed solos of great expression. The food was very good and I had a great time!

     Denver was going to be a straight through drive of about 16 hours only stopping to go the bathroom and stretch the legs for a bit. Unfortunately we ran into quite a snow storm half way through the drive with white out conditions which slowed us down to 20-40 miles per hour at times. It was a bit stressful but we made it through when many others did not. We must had seen at least ten tractor trailers jack knifed or completely off the road. One truck on the other side of the highway was blocking the whole interstate. Later on I found out that some people even died from that nasty storm! I praise Ryan and his skillful driving! He must have been exhausted when we finally got to Denver from our long 20 hour drive!

     Saturday night when I was staying in Cincinnati I stayed with the Ryan H. I had been staying with Ryan C and Krystal for about a week and they ask me if I could stay one night with another host so they could have a night alone together before they left on their trip to get ready for it. Ryan C gave me a ride over to Ryan H's house and they met each other and discovered they already knew each other from the shops they work at which are close to each other.

     Ryan H is very into the local Couchsurfing scene and meets with a group weekly for pot lucks and other activities.  He invited Ryan C to become part of the group that meets weekly. I went out with some of the group the next day for breakfast and an exhibit at the Cincinnati Museum Center and had a great time. My friend Mike had called and wanted to get together. He picked me up at the museum with his daughter and Mother. I knew his Mother and had not see or talked with her in a while. We went to this nice park in Cincinnati down by the river called Sawyer Point. I talked with Mike and his Mother catching up on things and talking about old times while his daughter was playing in the park.

    When in Cincinnati I discovered that the prepaid credit card I ordered was sent to the wrong address. It was going to take sometime to sent out another one so my wife sent me a money order priority in hopes that I would get it before I left Cincinnati. Unfortunately it did not come and the people who were house sitting for Ryan and Krystal while they were gone were going to forward it for me to my next destination in Denver. Although I did not have any money from the time I left New York until I got to Denver I was cared and provided for by my gracious hosts which in turn I am greatly appreciative of their support of me and my journey.

     I loved the movie Pay It Forward and believe in the principal that if you give to others you will receive in abundance back more than what you gave but not necessarily from the person with whom you
gave. Couchsurfing reflects this type of giving. I hosted several people when I lived in Sedona and enjoyed sharing meals and showing people around the beautiful sites of Sedona.  I never felt my giving was in vain but that someday when I wanted to travel people would host me and perhaps provide me with a meal in the same way I did with my surfers I hosted. I have received so much on this trip it has been an overwhelmingly joyful experience and I will be paying it forward!

     Thank you all so much!

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Goodbye New York Thank You For The Experience!


     It can be difficult sometimes to love yourself. It is easy to get down on yourself and believe the lies your ego tells you. The repetitive patterns of the past are always there to stifle your progress and ground you in the past or cause you fear and anxiety for the future. These subconscious beliefs from the past need to be released, only by releasing of the things that bind you can you change into the person you want to be. I have encountered much resistance on this trip and so far have been able to transcend it each time and stay focused on my goals and what I am doing now to accomplish them.

     This trip will test my ability to transcend all negative emotional attachment. I continue to practice Lester's methods and Ho'oponopono and have seen amazing results. Whenever I felt myself resisting the moment I would immediately try to recognize the feeling I was having and if it was connected to something. I would use Lester's process to release the feeling then I would use Ho'oponopono to heal the person or circumstance connected to the feeling. If there was only a feeling then I would just let it go as it was probably a random subconscious thought from a past feeling that I could not pinpoint.

     As soon as I did the releasing something magical happened every time! Something would open up, a door of opportunity would open. If I worried about where I was going to sleep then no answers would come my way, no opportunity would present itself. But as soon as I released those feelings and put trust in the now the door always opened. I have had a place to stay every night even though it is tough to find a couch in NY on short notice. I am enjoying the process of releasing even though I resist doing the releasing sometimes but if I persist the results can only improve.

     One of my problems is finishing or completing. I get excited about an idea and then half way through I lose interest or feel like it is not worth finishing or bringing to completion. One of my strongest negative beliefs is that anything I do won't work so why bother. I know the root cause of this belief now and I am working to release it completely. I have not felt this that much on my trip but it has been there trying to come to the surface somehow and it did today. It felt easy to release and I have not felt it since. I am determined to complete my journey of trust which will end in me being a published author, a public speaker and having a freedom that no money can buy.

     You must believe in yourself as a being no better and no worse than anyone else. We are all truly equal. We are just having different experiences and learning different lessons. This is the great school of duality called Earth. We are here for but a moment but elsewhere for eternity. 

     My friend Tony found another Couchsurfing host for me to stay with not too far from his place. Another Couchsurfing member who was not that active cause of a busy schedule and having friends crash at his place regularly anyway. My new host again was very hospitable and accommodating. Him and his friends were all young entrepreneurs living life on their own terms. Two of the guys who came to hang out and party had their own boats. One had planned a trip that would last 10 months! He invited me to come along at some point if I wanted too. He emphasized the importance of being ready to work hard on the boat as it needed some work on the deck. If I was to come I'd be scrubbing the deck like a swabby at times earning my keep which is all find and good. He also emphasized the important of being sea worthy, knowing safety procedures and the intricacies of sailing. I am on my own trip now and have my own business to attend too. I wish him good fortune on his trip and perhaps we will cross paths again.

     Although I had fun and much interaction with the younger crowd there I did not get much sleep at least at night as there were people coming and going and partying going on. I had my fill and was ready for a quite more relaxing place. In fact I was starting to feel the need to move on from NY completely. I checked my email and a Couchsurfing host Daniel from upper Manhattan who I had made a request from earlier now offered a couch to me as he was now available. I accepted his offer and was glad I did!

     His neighborhood was right on then boarder of the Bronx close to the river and a very nice park that had a hilly wooded area you could walk around in, a dog park for dogs, tennis courts and a big area for kids to play. I spent everyday I was there walking around and enjoying it, doing some clearing and releasing. 

     Before I left for my trip I ordered a Walmart prepaid credit card. It had not arrived yet so my wife was going to send it to me when it arrived. By the time I got to Daniel's I was down to just a few dollars and started to stress out about how I was to eat and pay for transportation to my next destination. I found a cheap bus ticket on Mega Bus and I needed to by it soon as the price was going to change within the next couple of days. 

     I was talking to my wife about the credit card problem and what we could do to fix it. After getting off the phone I sat down and released all of the feelings and tension I was having about the issue and then got ready for bed. My host was heading to bed and stopped to say that he was concerned that I would not get the cheap bus ticket before it was too late and offer to buy the ticket for me in exchange for dinner sometime in the future when he is traveling near me. I was simply amazed at how fast after clearing and releasing a solution arrived! I was filled with joy and appreciation at that moment so much I could barely get to sleep! I thanked him for his generous giving and know that he will be blessed with more than he gave. I can't wait to by him dinner!

     Daniel is searching for answers to life's biggest questions and we had engaging conversations on the bible, religion, atheism, agnosticism and spirituality. He was brought up atheist and he is now reading books on religion, the bible and agnostic views. I know he will find what he is looking for and I suggested he enjoy every moment of his research and to trust in his intuition to lead him. I look forward to seeing Daniel again soon. Thank you very much!


Tsunami of Change

It has been a few days since I have posted so this will be the first of a few posts. I have been busy doing some serious clearing and the results having been awesome! 

We think of tsunamis as a terrible monster and for sure in one way they are but another type of tsunami is hitting Earth as I write this now. This is not a wave of water but of energy that is changing the consciousness of the planet. Those who are aware know of it and can access it's incredible transforming power. Like water tsunamis if you are not prepared it will over take you and you will not know when it hits. The fear of the on coming wave will paralyze you and there will be no escape. If you are prepared and vigilant you not only survive but thrive!

This wave is bringing in a vibration of higher frequency than is present now. The wave will overtake anyone that is not of the same frequency range. Anyone who wants to survive this on coming wave must merge with it at the proper frequency becoming one with it. It is like shifting gears without a clutch, you must match the RPMs in order for the gears to merge. Everyone is capable of raising there vibration to match this wave. You must first let go of fear, cause fear of any kind will not survive. Most of humanity ranges from 20 to 250 on the vibrational scale of consciousness. Unconditional Love starts at 500 and that is where you want to be. We are not far off from it and it is very attainable in a short period of time.

map of consciousness according to David Hawkins

Acceptance is the key. Letting go is the door. Forgiveness the sign of welcoming (well - coming). We must let go of the old ways of control, fear, manipulation, insecurity, survival, the animalistic nature and embrace the new way of love, cooperation, oneness, freedom, expansion, the spiritual nature. It is not so much that these ways are new but there is a bringing about to the surface of what exists already to fullness. To discover our true nature, our true self that lurks behind the mask, the veil of illusion.

There many ways to raise your vibration. I have talked about a few techniques here already. One being Lester Levenson's method of releasing emotional attachment from past events thus freeing yourself of any blocks to the higher realms of consciousness. Ho'oponopono is another one which helps in healing your outside reality by taking total responsibility for it. Taking total responsibility for your reality that you experience gives you the ability to heal it because you are able to step back and become the observer of yourself and look at yourself objectively. This in turn gives you the power and control to shape your reality as you desire.

I am starting to see results and the results are a crescendo  building slowly, gaining speed.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Bare-ly making it

     After putting in several Couchsurfing requests for Friday and the weekend I got accepted by another  host in Brooklyn not to far from where I was currently staying. When searching through profiles looking for people to stay with I would come across a profile every now and then that stated that they are a nudist and that if you could not handle nudity then this couch was not a good idea for you. There seems to be a decent amount of nudist profiles in the New York area. Well it seemed inevitable that I was to have this experience cause the person who accepted my request was a nudist. This was the only couch being offer to me.

     He had other roommates that were not nudist and I figured if they can live there then I can stay there for a few days. Trusting in what is I decided to stay with them. I met my host Paul at Union Square where he gave me the keys to his loft as he was going out for the night and would be home late. His manner is serious but friendly and open. When I arrived at the loft, two of his roommates Albert and Joseph were there hanging out watching a movie on the PC. We didn't talk that much that night as it was late.

     The next day I talked with Albert and Joseph and got into some good conversation about life. We talked about everything from philosophy to Aliens, God, self empowerment and equality. Their other roommate Lex came home and joined in on the conversation. Lex is big into the occupy Wall street movement and talked about what was going on with it.

     My host came home later that day. The nudity did not bother me at all. He was very natural about it. Doing what anyone else would do in their home. I respect that he can be himself and not worry how other people think. All the people in the loft were gracious and hospitable . They provided me with some food and drink which I greatly appreciated!

     After staying in the loft I made my way to an old Couchsurfing acquaintance Tony who I knew from the Boston CS group. We had met at a few parties and I had crashed on his couch once. Tony had two nights available for me to surf. Monday and Wednesday. I did not know where I would go on Tuesday. He mentioned that he was going to Boston for the night and that is why he could not host me on Tuesday. I asked him how he was getting there and said he was driving his car. He would be staying one night and heading back late the next day. I asked him if I could come along so I could visit with my wife and kids for the day and he graciously said yes.

     I did not expect to be going home so soon but it was a good thing to go and see my family while I had the opportunity. At the time I was running out of money and needed to do some laundry and was wondering how was going to get more money and clean my clothes. I had signed up for a prepaid credit card that I could take with me on the trip so I could receive money from home or another source. I had not yet received it before I left and did not have a way for anyone to send me money. Going home was perfect for getting the funds I needed, doing my laundry and spending sometime with my wife and kids! Unfortunately I still did not receive my card when I went home so my wife will have to send it to my next destination.

     It was good to see my kids. I miss them so much! My little one Bray is starting to walk, taking his first few steps. He is not yet walking but he is taking steps in between points. My older one Hayden is having some trouble with me being away. Since he was born I have been around most of the time since I have been unemployed much over the last few years.  I hope to be able to see them soon again. I do keep in touch on the PC web cam a couple of times a week.

     I found a ride to Ohio my next destination. I will be staying with an old high school friend that I have kept in touch with over the years. I'll be leaving New York on Monday.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Days Gone By

  Days are flying by here in the big apple. Thursday I walked through central park enjoying another warm day in December. The ice skating rink was a nice feature. The Zamboni came out to clear the ice as I approached. I always wanted to drive a Zamboni for some reason. Maybe it is that the Zamboni clears the ice smoothing out all the scars from the people who have skated all over it. The scared up ice becomes smooth like glass by the warmth of the Zamboni.

Our life can be ice that has never been Zambonied! All scarred up from people skating all over it. No loving warmth to smooth clear away the scars. All you need to realize is that you are the ice and the Zamboni driver! You can clear the ice anytime. The power is within you to do it! Get clear have no fear! I swear by the Sedona method and Ho'oponopono! They work wonders for clearing your emotional baggage and healing your reality. I find the more I do it the easier it is to clear any negative emotions that arise.

I was hungry and most of the junky food that was served in the park was expensive. I came upon a food cart that had all natural and organic foods and it was more reasonable then the junk food for some odd reason.

My Couchsurfing host has been very hospitable! My PC was having issues with connecting to the Internet. Windows seven was the problem. He asked me if I would like to try Linux. He said the newer version is much more user friendly now then back in the day when Linux was really only for the techie guys. It is very stable, fast and needs no virus protection. You can download it for free with all types of add ons. So far I have no complaints it works great. Thanks Lorenzo!

Friday I spent a considerable amount of time chilling in Starbucks writing and attending to business. After sitting there feeling quite cramped up, I decided to get up and go for a walk. I walked for a long time talking on the phone to friends and suddenly realised I did not know where I was but I kept walking and talking. I finally ended up right near the 911 memorial and decided to take a peek and see what it looks like and feel the vibe in the area. Well it was a well guarded area to say the least, more police in a square block then people in Hong Kong.

When I reached the site which is all walled up with more cameras then a bus full of tourist, I started reading the sign about admission which was full of several instructions, a security guard or site personal came up to me and asked if I would like to go in. I said sure and he gave me a pass. As I walked through maze heading into the place I was overcome by a intense feeling of sadness and felt the presence of many souls. The feeling was so overwhelming I started to well up with tears. This was not my feeling! I had no feelings about 911 or victims or anything like that when this hit me.

I decided to not go in at that point and turned around and left. People started asking me why I didn't want to go in and I just shook my head like I couldn't speak. Then when asked again I just said I am not ready yet. They did not ask me anymore after that probably figuring I had become emotionally overwhelmed and had known someone who died. I did know someone on a 911 flight who died but I had only met him once. My Doctor had moved away and the new Doctor who had taken over was this person. I had one appointment with him before 911.

After leaving I did an immediate clearing. I decided that I would use Ho'oponopono to heal the victims of 911 from a distance by reading their names. Just like the Doctor did with all those mental patients by just looking at their files and repeating the mantra. I wouldn't know how many times to do it since I cannot know how the healing is going since I cannot see the victims healing. I will have to figure out a way to do this, those people need healing and they are still crying out! Something will come to me.

I think it would be a good idea to ease up on the security and make it more inviting. I think it is that very feeling of fear and insecurity that needs to be healed not just for the victims but for those who were deeply effected by the event and those who loss loved ones. There is no longer anything there to blow up or destroy, only deep pain that needs to be healed. I wish they would drop the walls around the perimeter and minimize security. I understand the fear but I think it is time to let it go and heal.

I must have walked 10 miles on Friday! I was completely exhausted by the time I made it back to my host's house. My host was not yet back from his day and so I decided to stop off in Williamsburg to have a drink and perhaps some good conversation. When got off the subway I found a street full of activity and life. Young college students being as hip as they can be, learning to express themselves. There are lots of shops, bars, cafes, art studios to name a few things. I decided to look for a good dive bar. I found this place about four blocks from the train. I don't remember the name of it as I was not paying attention to such details. After having a few drinks I started a conversation with the guy next to me Sam.

 The synchronicities that happen in life are of no coincidence. We talked about all the things that I am doing on this trip. He was nodding his head agreeing and relating his thoughts and feelings on all subjects. I told him about the Hermetic Institute and he seemed real interested in knowing more. I think he would love attending one of the seminars here in town. We talked for a time and he realized that he was supposed to meet his friends about 20 minutes ago. So we finished up our conversation and agreed to stay in touch both feeling uplifted from the conversation.